every once in awhile, i wonder what i used to do with my time, you know, when i was kidless. when my world was not filled with meeting the wants and needs of first one, and then two, and then three little bodies.
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what on God’s green earth did i do with my time?!
what did i do when my to-do list was crossed off by dinnertime {or earlier}? when my nights were free? when my weekends weren’t jam packed with flag football and soccer and birthday parties and playdates?
when holidays came and all i worried about was whether or not i was going to dress up, or if i was even going to cook a turkey, and when i could count the gifts i needed to buy on 1 hand…
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seriously. what did i do?
when i got a full nights sleep? can you imagine the energy i must have had? the free time? the sense of accomplishment at a completed to do list with room for the *fun* projects?
imagine.
i honestly can’t remember what i did with all the free time, and though i’m sure i was less harried, and more rested, and perhaps had more *me* things accomplished, i can’t help but think how boring my life must have been.
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because now? now, my time is filled with noise, and hugs, and kisses, and stories, and snuggles, and frayed nerves, and loud dinners, and to-do lists as long as my body. impromptu dance parties, prayers, games, discpline, and discipleship, and teaching. and oh so much more, and though it is hard, sometimes exhausting work, it is oh-so-very-extremely-without-a-doubt, worth it.
SO worth it.
{yes. that’s a tent. we camped in our yard this weekend. totally normal.}
i wouldn’t trade these crazy, fun, loud, loving, chaotic, circus-y days for a million days of quiet, simple, boring life before kids.
true story.
this got my sometimes always, scattered brain off on a tangent…though i speak the truth, i honestly wouldn’t trade any of this for the world, there are some things i wouldn’t mind re-instilling into my life. little things like more creativity {be it art or crafts or what-have-you}, free time for reading books, working out, and dates with lover.
simple things.
so i’m making myself a promise,
*self? i promise to make an attempt to incorporate each of these things more fully into my life. bit by bit.*
after all, i am still a person too, and meeting my needs helps me meet the needs of my circus that i love so dearly.
what would you add back into your life if you had the time?
maybe you should make yourself a promise too.
food for thought anyway!
peace out and blessings all around *
patti - I would fly down there more often too!! But i would have to have iced coffee because it is so warm there! My life story is so similar, often wondering if it was worth it to stay home, and have babies! (i wanted 6, but settled for 4, but really wanted 10 just to see what they looked like :)) My dad would of had a heart attack if i had 10 kids!!!!…. Honestly, i probably lost my identidy for a few years. You will pop out of this stage, as your kids grow up, somehow you will grow right with them. I believe your where your supposed to be right now. Good days and bad! keep up the awesome job, your doing great. 🙂 love you <3
Your Mama - Amy, I agree, I would fly more often to have coffee with my circus and maybe catch you there as well!!!! Love you guys
Amy Winter - I would fly to Arizona to have coffee with a friend. She is awesome 😉